Got home from work at 7pm last night. Gotta love retail. Worked 11 to 7. Same as every other Sunday. I also work every Friday and Saturday too. In fact, this week I only have Monday off. I work six days and only get 36 hours. If your going to ruin my week at least give me some real hours!
My store is currently in liquidation. Yep, their going out of business. It took me two months to find the job and two months later we all find out its closing. We will be locking up the place at the end of the month. I'm not attached to the place. Don't really like it at all. What's upsetting is that it is another family store that has been around for over 50 years that couldn't stay afloat in these tough times. I can't begin to count the many people that have told me their tale of becoming unemployed. One lady was a job recruiter! She came back from her vacation and her job was gone.
I have been lucky though because several stores began hiring last week and they both look very promising for me. Wish i could say the same for all those out there with families and mortgage payments.
On a better note, working in retail gives me plenty of time to ponder what to grow, where to plant, what am I doing with my life, etc.. etc...
Several co-workers found out today that I was 27 years old. They had a look of surprise assuming that I was 19 or so. Not that I am complaining. I want to stay young forever so that works for me. I don't feel 27. I don't act 27 very often. And apparently I don't look 27 either. So it all works out. I will remain 19ish until I look 27ish. Not that 27 is old but I'm just not where I thought I would be by now. I'm not married, no children, no house to call my own, no real career, just floating along in North Carolina, longing to be back in Michigan.
I have all these dreams and goals that still haven't come to fruition and of course, I am the only one to blame. My lack of drive and my ability to procrastinate have sabotaged me from a very early age. Even today, I do so much better with someone to hold my hand. I try to start things but eventually come to a point where i feel i can go no further. It's all mental but I just don't know how you overcome things that are in your head.
Keeping this blog is my first step in following through with something. I'm surprised I am being so good about it. But it isn't hard to do. I really love it! Its the highlight of my day everyday.
What I need to do is get moving. Start planning, reading, taking classes, meeting people, thinking positive and whatever else it takes to get going. I'm not getting any younger and my dreams and goals are not getting any more real! I can do it!!!